I don’t often go back and re-read my blog entries—at least not recent ones. Why? Well, I don’t really know. Maybe I remember what I wrote recently. Maybe I read the older ones just to see what my frame of mind was “way back when” (which, by the way, if you don’t keep a blog or a private journal, is the absolute best reason to start one right away) and the more recent ones aren’t distant enough yet. Who knows? I don’t care about the Why, but I acknowledge the What.
But recently I wrote:
I have ideas. I have plans. I have goals. I can create. I can express. Synthesis? Doable, but there’s always a sort of premorse quality to it. Analysis? Fucking forget it. Forget concentration. Forget retention. Output happens, but input and processing? No dice.
How incestuous is it to link to your own recent blog-entry? Srrriusly.
I think it was Juhr that pointed out these were interesting distinctions, which led me to consider what he meant by that. I went a-lookin’ about left-brain vs. right-brain stuff, and I’ll be damned. It’s the left-brain stuff that’s been suffering while the right-brain stuff is largely intact. Even without the left vs right way of looking at things, it’s obvious that the analytical stuff requires a focus and concentration on external factors—like facts, details, logical-flow—while the creative stuff, while still requiring focus and concentration, is aimed inward with the intent of expression or getting it outside. Painting, writing, drawing, joking, imagining. All those kinds of things.
So the me-that-was is on a vacation (or a bender) so I decided to go with a not-me approach to understanding: web-quizzes! Yes, I’ve done them before, but only in fun. This is an actual attempt to understand. Of course, I take it all with several grains of salt, but entertainment can be educational (e.g., “O if life were only moments, then you’d never know you had one” or “Look I made a hat! Where there never was a hat!”).
So what did I find? Well, stuff (pardon the formatting, I’m just using their crap HTML):
Brain Lateralization Test Results
|Right Brain (66%) The right hemisphere is the visual, figurative, artistic, and intuitive side of the brain.|
Left Brain (34%) The left hemisphere is the logical, articulate, assertive, and practical side of the brain
personality tests by similarminds.com
|You Are 5% Left Brained, 95% Right Brained|
Left brained people are good at communication and persuading others.
If you’re left brained, you are likely good at math and logic.
Your left brain prefers dogs, reading, and quiet.
The right side of your brain is all about creativity and flexibility.
Daring and intuitive, right brained people see the world in their unique way.
If you’re right brained, you likely have a talent for creative writing and art.
Your right brain prefers day dreaming, philosophy, and sports.
Seems to be right-dominated, right? Well, there was another quiz which didn’t have postable summary information, but it didn’t need any: out of 18 questions, all of them I answered as a left-brained person. Imagine.
Overall, however, the results came down pretty heavily on the right-brained side. So tell me why I’ve spent all of my adult life chasing after work and activities that required so-called left-brain faculties? What if my right-brain stuff is, in fact, more powerful than my left? I’ve done pretty well with the left, so I have to ask: what might happen if I got out of my own way and gave the right-side a chance?
I’ve been doing this a lot lately: since for the first time in a very long time I’m not very happy being me (because the traditional me is significantly disabled in his traditional strengths), I’m giving the alternate not-me’s a chance to weigh in. It’s not a multiple-personality thing, this is just a way of describing my consideration of alternate paths.
One final quiz result and, ok, and this one was just downright eerie. If I had to sit down and summarize my abilities, I can’t imagine it’d be anything but very close to this:
Jeff, you possess an interesting balance of hemispheric and sensory characteristics, with a slight right-brain dominance and a slight preference for visual processing.
Since neither of these is completely centered, you lack the indecision and second-guessing associated with other patterns. You have a distinct preference for creativity and intuition with seemingly sufficient verbal skills to be able to translate in any meaningful way to yourself and others.
You tend to see things in “wholes” without surrendering the ability to attend to details. You can give them sufficient notice to be able to utilize and incorporate them as part of an overall pattern.
In the same way, while you are active and process information simultaneously, you demonstrate a capacity for sequencing as well as reflection which allows for some “inner dialogue.”
All in all, you are likely to be quite content with yourself and your style although at times it will not necessarily be appreciated by others. You have sufficient confidence to not second-guess yourself, but rather to use your critical faculties in a way that enhances, rather than limits, your creativity.
You can learn in either mode although far more efficiently within the visual mode. It is likely that in listening to conversations or lecture materials you simultaneously translate into pictures which enhance and elaborate on the meaning.
It is most likely that you will gravitate towards those endeavors which are predominantly visual but include some logic or structuring. You may either work particularly hard at cultivating your auditory skills or risk “missing out” on being able to efficiently process what you learn. Your own intuitive skills will at times interfere with your capacity to listen to others, which is something else you may need to take into account.<br/>
Quiz available here.